| there's been far too much hurly burly regarding this year's uni admission. and in this respect, i do feel lucky that i never really bore huge, nobel aspirations, so much so that i would hit rock bottom if i couldnt gain entry into say, law/med school. the thing is, i probably know myself better than to struggle to fit into the elite class. yes, i tend not to put myself in a position where my dreams could be dashed. one way is to attain it, the other, is to minimize on wishful thinking. don't dream too big, the inconvenience and anguish could overwhelm. sometimes i look at the seriously brilliant elites and i wonder if they truly want what they want. certainly, they've worked exceedingly hard and they probably deserve to want anything that's highly coveted. yes, people make choices to feel good about themselves. it's surely pleasing to the ego to gain entry into coveted, prestigious courses because we can, not usually 'coz we want to. how many of us aren't guilty of that? if i were an accidental elite, i would certainly muster the audacity to apply for law. nevermind that it has never been the plan; i will probably do it, because i can. all of us who enter the interview room are all liars in our own right. and with the seemingly clandestine university entry requirements, we'll probably never guess why the "truly passionate ones" seeped through while the oscar-worthy ones lucked out. 'coz rly, we are all concerned about our standing in the society. we try to align our "passions" alongside some sort of security that we would not be occupying the not-so-high rungs of the social ladder. surely, if people looking to pursue medicine truly were in it to fulfil their deep passion for the medical field, or the calling to save humanity, why not nursing? why not social work? how many medicine applicants put nursing as a choice after medicine? but isn't it natural? pragmatism is about altering your "passion" a little to fit it into reality. life is really not about doing what you love but falling in love with the things you already are doing. god-talk people will say that God has other plans. its a comforting, albeit a lil ridiculous, reasoning. |
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